NaNo Key14

running a marathon in my brain
still early, I am easily daunted
but persevere'cause I wanna!

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I was just going to write about my children; but I
have a great desire to protect their privacy, so I
generally avoid using their names.
I just told them to try their best to be nice to
each other--that when you're mean to someone it
hurts you inside just as it hurts your target. "How
can you say such terrible things? Kill? Hate? Such
nasty thoughts will eat you up inside."
The sibling struggle--how much does it define us,
shape us?

Love

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Into the grey fog I fall
unable to see the words
I must feel them, and let them go;
without hesitation
just plug on
climb my mountain...
it moves me...

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"You play your game dear, I need to write."

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I only quote myself, because I feel that the words
should be what I've written, and I don't want to
quote without permission. Someday...
I am bless to know many fine people--bright lights
that shine through my monitor with gentle clever
words.
A book about me? It seems so egocentric--but it's
what I know best. Besides, we're all metaphors for
each other.

expression eases
sharing, connecting gives comforts
legacies of love

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I can generally produce 400 words in an hour,
sometimes more, often less.
It's hard to do it steadily.
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brain firing off
biochemelectric thoughts
unique combos all

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Is there really anything else I'd rather be doing?
Of course, ya can't just write any ol' thoughts
down--there are boundaries to be respected. But
those boundaries, like the haiku form, are just
horizontal and help you focus and ascend without
verticle boundaries.
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angels float to mind
faeries of heartfelt mythos
in-spiritation

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easier to know
the magic of divine flow
through pure creation

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I still miss painting--it's been a while. I try to
write as I paint. I miss the vibrant liquid
colours, with their soft quickly changing
natures--flowing into each other, merging, creating
together a whole surpassing the sum of its parts.
As we are all metaphors for each other, so too are
our creations, are my paintings; metaphors of the
universe.
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uni-verse one word
infinite means always more
everything connects

always more and less
expansion and contraction
Big Bang: God exhaling!

We must define, clarify, what we mean as
individuals when we say "God." To me, God is the
infinitely vast body of the universe. I believe the
universe is inifinitely large and small. No matter
how far we look in any direction, there's always
more. "God" is the whole of which we are all part.
And because there's always more when one looks at
infinity, this makes the conceptualization of an
infinite universe always fades to fuzzy edges of
the beyond--at this point, imagination and
distraction ceases to conceive; and what
communicates is the feeling of now as unending in
all direction. It can feel tremendously liberating.
Good for the perspective. Contemplating God
pacifies as we desperately search for the path back
to the womb. Outward turns inward, as we find the
universal womb is reflected within. As we dissolve
into the body of God, the universe, the Universal
Mother...we become God and can wrap ourselves into
ourselves when we breath in.
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